Unwind with Me | Painting Cherry Blossom with Watercolours

I finally did it! I painted. For Christmas I asked for some watercolour paints and brushes so I could have a go at painting which my mum graciously gifted. They have been sitting in the corner of the room ever since glaring at me to be used! The last time I used any sort of paints was in primary school (a lifetime ago!). Excitement and uncertainty ensued whilst creating this picture. It turned out so much better than I had hope and thought I would have to scrap a few before I felt happy with anything I would have created! 
Bullet journalling is something I have taken great joy over the last six months and I feel like this is an extension of that. It brings me so much peace and joy to doodle, draw and now paint. I chose to paint cherry blossom as I have been loving a floral theme in my bullet journal but also because I wish I could go to Japan for the cherry blossom season

You can also watch how I created this picture on youtube :) 

What do you do to unwind? What is currently inspiring you? 



Rut + Inspiration

Lately I have been stuck - I have lost the joy in getting dressed and instead have turned to "comfy" options. My wardrobe is full of clothes that I absolutely love but for the past year I have used maybe 10% of it and as a consequence I feel like I have gotten boring. At the same time my self love or self appreciation for my body has gone down - not to say that I hate how I look but I don't feel as comfortable or as confident as I feel I did a year ago.
There hasn't been a great deal of change  No, that's not quite a true statement - my job has changed, my schedule has changed and I have just started a diploma in nutrition. My life has definitely changed - its more grown up and I'm starting to ponder if somehow, unconsciously, that its affected how I dress and in turn affected how I view myself.
How I dressed in the past used to be an expression of self - I had so much fun with it and working in a clothes shop I had that freedom everyday to be as big and as bold as I dared to be. Then I changed jobs and worked in hospitality where that freedom didn't exist and was restricted to a uniform. Now my freedom has somewhat returned but working as a Chiropractic assistant doesn't allow for too much boldness. I guess I still haven't quite worked out the balance of looking professional without losing my touch of self.
Its funny I didn't realise how important dressing each day has an impact on how I feel or view myself. I need to start posting again regularly and I definitely need to start having fun with how I dress again. Lets bring back the fun.

I wrote the above post at the end of last year with the intent of posting it but I clearly didn't get round to it. I actually have a few of these more "honest" posts where I talk more about my feelings and thought processes. So there's more of these types of posts on the way.
It's so funny to look at it now as I feel the pretty much the opposite. I went through my wardrobe which helped me rediscover some things as well as trying to clear out the unused/unloved items. Clearing through my wardrobe is so hard as I love so much but I have managed to filter through a few things. Rediscovering items is so much fun - its so easy to forget about items if you're wearing the same set of clothes through the different seasons.
At the beginning of the year I made a promise to myself to save more and buy less - I have mostly kept to that! It was my birthday this month so I allowed myself a little reprieve and got myself a few new things. However, I could only buy it if it truly evoked some sort of good feeling. Sounds a bit woowoo but it helps me from purchasing things I don't really want/need! I recently found a skirt in Topshop that I just fell in love with - the moment I saw it it made me happy! Sometimes it truly is the small things in life.
Another exciting thing that is happening is Brian has decided to come on board and help me with this blogging/youtube thing. He has given me a renewed spark of inspiration on what I can do. I love blogging and whatnot but it is not the easiest thing to do by yourself. I always wished for a partner who could help me film and shoot and now I have one. So excited to share some new and hopefully exciting content for you!

Do you have an inspiration rut or just a rut in general? How do you get out of it?




Happy ridiculously belated New Year! I can't believe it's taken me until the 25th to write this post.
Instagram/Youtube has taken over my blogging brain. I hope your new year has gotten off to the best start.
How crazy is it to be writing 2017? Makes me feel so old to realise that I can remember it turning 2000 with vivid clarity..I swear we should be called time travellers with how fast time is going

So far this year has been a good one - I managed to finally realise my dream of going to see Hamilton (I got tickets for 2018)! In all seriousness this year marks a few milestones for me 

- I turn 26 - the age that my mum had me
- Brian and I celebrate our 10 year anniversary 
- I will have completed my first year of nutrition and enter my second

If those three lines don't make anyone feel like a growed up - I don't know what will! For me a sense of being an adult and feeling like what my ideal of a grown up so far hasn't married together. I have noticed that I have written about this quite a few times in the last few years and it's something I can't quite help going back to. I definitely have more responsibilities and my thought processes are definitely geared about making the future better but I don't know whether I feel like I am what my ideal of a grown up is. Will this come when I own my first house? When I have a child? Will I be fortunate to be able to do those things?  

So with the start of the new year comes the typical changes and the hope of a more productive me. I started a bullet journal back in October and I absolutely love it - not only is it making me slightly more organised but I am enjoying the creative outlet it brings. 
I recently downloaded Asana Rebel and I love it. I have a gym membership but with the trains being crappy and time being something I don't seem to have a lot of - having an app that will plan my workouts for me is a blessing
This month is also when I decided to do the Whole30 - it's something I have been wanting to do for a while now but didn't think the festive season was the best time to start. I am in my third week and definitely seeing the benefits, I feel as if I have more energy, less groggy when I wake up, my skin is clearer & brighter and I feel a little lighter. Brian is also doing it with me and we have decided to continue with the principles of Whole30 when we are done with the 30 days but with a one day reprieve each week! 

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